Fat diary

Sorry lovelies ent been on in days have a Q what diet pills are good but safe?? its for my friend who is ana but she cant come on here her parents are on to her so thought i'd ask on her behalf and mail her answer thanks.
Well things are going great for me been in my aunts house all week so ent been eating much she is a vegan so only really eaten neg cals when was in her house i loved it **Would you girlies reccomend going vegan like cal intake whys????

Kate moss thinspo

Hi girlies good afternoon,
Ent been on in a few days my internet was broken how was easter for everyone hope went well mine was okies til today i major binged on a choc egg like a full one but wats done is done only saying that because i'm back to skl on mon and dont eat much in school.Went shopping today got cute red beaded necklace its so cute and great bc its fashionable wont be asked y i'm wearing it

Hi hope everyone is doing well i'm having a great day havent eaten anything yet its only 10.10am but start as you mean to go on? well dont know if you guys remember me saying yesterday that my cousin was coming to live with us and that she was ana for ages well i thought she'd notice me and tell my mom but i was talking to her last night and she was like where are he gyms and all in your area and stuff so i was like y who needs a gym pretending to be thick and then she just opened up and said that she is still ana so now she cant go off telling my mom if she is to so i'm all happy now.

Hi girlies hope all is well for everyone if anyone wants to talk or feels that they need support spagbogado@hotmail.com or check out my myspace gracielou98.
Yesterday didnt eat much all day but then had a HUGE dinner but my mum made me.Today is going well had a tiny breakfast- 70 cals and dont plan on eating til dinner gonna go clean house for like ages takes my mind off food and burns cals i love it.Shit news though my cousin is coming to live with us today she's 20 and was ana for a while so i think she mite pick up on it easily wat you gals think any tips.

Hi girlies hope all is going well for everyone i'm real happy today its my first day of my 2wks hol from school and i'm like working everyday and studying so very little time to eat.So far today i havent eaten much had orange juice just for breakfast pure so very few cals then for lunch had a creme egg i love them but mad amount of cals in them i'm like in work at 5 til 11 so wont be having dinner so its a good day food wise if i stick to it.Do you guys find it easier to restrict if you like make a food plan or if you eat when you do i'm not to sure which is best so thought i'd ask.
xoxoGrace

Does anyone know how to insert pics on journal entries????
Well today went well I didnt stuff my face with food like usual just had fruit and some rice so its all good but I came home from school today to find out that my best ana buddy ever well her parents found out about ana about a week ago but theyy decided to cancel the internet so i can no longer keep in touch with her its so shit.
Is anyone looking for an ana buddy i'm 17, 5'3'' and 116lbs I know you all prob think i'm such a bitch looking for a new ana buddy so soon after losing jenny but i need the support or else i eat
xoxoGrace

Today hasn't been going all that well unfortunately I had a bowl of cereal for luch and a dairy milk and am still to have dinner hopefully it's all down to the exam today I had an irish speaking exam and didnt wana restrict bc i thought i wouldnt be able to think well if i did.
I hope its working for all of you guys does anyone want to fast this weekend starting fri lunch to mon bc my parents are away all weekend
stay strong think thin and believe in yourself
xoxoGrace

Today went well had a few more cals than i wished but didnt binge had a crazy binge on sat night ate pizza choc lots and couldnt even purge bc my mam was in the next room hope to fast on wens to sun so i can reach my goal weight another 17lbs and i'll be ana according to by bmi atlast i'll be back there again i hate being ednos which i suppose is what we all are even though we dont wana be but heres to
17.4 bmi!!!!!!!!!
i cant wait he he

Today is the first day of my 02468 and have been fasting for 24hrs so far but plan on doing another 12 and somehow its not bothering me that i cant eat i'm so happy i decided that i would do a 7day reallt strict restrict afterwards to reach my goal weight of 100 by april 1st which means i have 16 lbs to lose i'm 116 at min in 21 days so a lb a day and then a further 5days bc i love to out do my goals

lost weight and the start of this week was down to 113.5 but got my period so shit and now i'm 116 so all the fasting was pointless hope everyone else is doing well i hope to fast next week and reach my goals bc i'm going on hols in june and i wana look more than perfect

Started a fast on monday night after dinner and all is going well so far almost 48 hours into it!!!
i hope to lose over 4lbs by sunday then i will back in the 7stones.Going back to school on mon so it will be harder then bc all my friends watch everything i eat (or dont eat)

Today went well fasted for 20hrs but had a major binge when i came home had a bit of a shit day my pre exams started today but it was so hard i think i failed i have the next 2weeks full with exams so i'll prob end up binging my fat face through the exams

Today went well for once stressing so much about my exams they start tomorow i have maths and gaeilge 2m dreading it so much but its taking my mind off eating and everyone around me thinks that i just dont have time to eat its great

Okay so today went well spent a while on internet looking up the no of cals burnt for each activity so i came up with a plan I only eat dinner every day for the next 2 weeks-250cals (that way mam see's me eat) and i excercise a lot burning between 400 cals and 900 meaning a -150 to a -650 then the week after this i will fast for the week and then the next week same as above but 200 a day instead of 250 because i decided that i want to really work at ana from here on in exams or not hopefully i can lose a bit of weight before i go back to school in 3 weeks and before my ex bf comes home from his hols i want to make him know what he is missing mainly because i am still madly in love with him i know so desperate but i cant help it he's just the one for me really chessy isnt it hehe


Gracie lula(wat he calls me)
*loves*
Bertie Bassett(wat i call him)

Havent posted in a while but i have sort of good news my sis who is a bit chubby decided to go on a diet and my mam is thinking about it too this way our dinners which i am forced to eat will become really low cal and they will be focusing on themselves too much to be looking at me all the time all this week so far i have been keeping below 500 not great but i am still burning about 250 most days but more sometimes
I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: optimistic

Havent posted in what seems so long but really havent had the time got my pre exam thing coming uo next week just studying all the time really kind of eating a bit more than i should be but just trying to keep my energy up for studying today i ate
*lunch- orange
yoghurt 120
*dinner- veg thing tiny few oven chips- 300
total-420 not that good not that bad but soon it will be over i have my break coming up after my exams that 2 full weeks home by myself my mom and sis are going away so thats when ana is going to lose all of these extra pounds i weigh like 110 ish scales gone cant really tell i want to be below 99 at end of 2 weeks mite just fast it

Current Mood: cheerful

I know what I want
To be a size twenty-four
To weigh one-hundred and five
And not a pound more
I have the wish
but not the might
If I just keep starving
I know I'll be alright
A chocolate bar
Too tempting to pass
I know where it goes,
Straight to my ass! So
I'll shove my fingers
Deep down my throat
If I can get it all up
Then I know I can devote.
My new goal in life
Is to be thin
To make others jealous
To be happy within.
Dizziness, Cramps
Constant headache
A small price to pay
To be truly awake.
Watch others blindly
Gain in size
Eating disgusting garbage
That goes straight to their thighs.
I must know my own strength
For wanting to be small
Because I will be superior
When I'm the skinniest of all.

Current Mood: creative

I see the mirror
Who's that girl?
I hate what I see
I turn away and cry
I cry so many times a day
So many times
My imperfection follows me
Everywhere
Tell me what can I do?
I hate what I see.
I break the mirror.

Current Mood: artistic

I'm such a fucking fat bitch this whole thing is not working its pissn me so much my boyfriend is ready to break up with me coz he found out about ana and he is like trying to "help" me i know that he is just doinf=g it because he loves but i dont want to lose him but at the same time i dont want to be fat someone please help me

Current Mood: distressed